… Twiddling my thumbs.
I’m officially in a rut.
Why is this? Apparently I’m impatient and I just want things to happen NOW.
I’ve been studying for a test for three months which I’ll take NEXT FRIDAY. Next Saturday, I’m getting out of the city for six wholes day in sunny southern Florida. A day after I get home, my boyfriend is moving to the other side of the country (I’m following but not quite so soon). And four weeks after that I’ll leave my job of four years to pack up my apartment and embark on a three week road trip to San Diego, which will end at the apartment that we signed a lease on without seeing and that my boyfriend is moving in to in just 15 days.
I’m so ancy. I can’t sit still but I can’t do anything. I want to study but I’ve studied so much. I want to read a book but, again, I can’t sit still. I want to start packing, but I’m still living here for six more weeks. I’m going crazy. I try to tell myself that this too shall pass but I feel like I’m going insane right now.
I have so many books to read this month, and I just thought I’d be so much more excited to read them.
- I have a book club book that is SO interesting (Blitzed by Norman Ohler) but it’s too serious for me to want to sit down and focus on right now.
- I have three Book of the Month books – one that not serious enough, so I don’t want to waste time on (STARTUP by Doree Shafrir), one that I’m saving to read on the beach in Florida (Veins of the Ocean by Patricia Engel), and one that idk maybe I’ll read on the airplane but again, non-fiction, and feels to serious right now (Killers of the Flower Moon by David Grann).
- I tried a new subscription box this month, Muse Monthly, which is on its way here. But I know I won’t even read it when it gets here because of my current mood. Although, hell, maybe the tea will help me relax. (The book, by the way, is No One is Coming to Save Us by Stephanie Powell Watts)
In an effort to feel productive I look things up online to get excited about. What did this amount to? Well, I know what audiobooks I want to listen to on the roadtrip!
- The Wanderers by Meg Howrey
- Sleeping Giants by Sylvain Neuvel
- Waking Gods by Sylvain Neuvel if we like Sleeping Giants.
The only trouble is now I know I have to wait six weeks to listen to these too!
The other thing I looked up is creating a bullet journal for the road trip. This sounds like SO MUCH FUN, but I don’t have the discipline to start that before my test, so another goal for next week.
So, where does this leave us? Sorry for the rant, but it feels good to get it out. I probably won’t be posting much about books I’ve read for the next few weeks (because.. see above) but I hope to get back to it after!
Happy Easter Weekend!